When I feel something strongly, it helps me to write my way through those feelings. That was the case with losing McGee. I couldn't move on to other things before processing that first.
But fact is, there was a LOT going on for us at that time.
I had hoped things would be different, that he would make it through that final week of school & all it's events, a birthday & surgery. I'd hoped we would be able to focus on one thing at a time. But it all happened at once. The great world was spinning & continues to spin.
Time to catch up.
The older boys finished another baseball season with a final playoff game.
Mason couldn't do any fielding with his broken / non-working throwing finger, but they put him in as designated hitter with the bad finger buddy taped to the next and plumbers putty between them for cushion. He hit a triple, the biggest hit of the game!
Another year of high school sports done.
The next day Beau graduated First Grade. He was a "Guard Bee" in the play The Honeybees and the Robbers. Then his teacher shook his hand & told him "Congratulations, Beau, you're ready for 2nd grade."
A special treat, his 1st grade teacher is also moving to 2nd grade next year, he gets to have her again!
Johnathan's 5th grade class launched rockets and I got to catch a little of the action after Beau's graduation. It's nice to have all of our kids, K-12 in one building.
Johnathan moves to a middle school format next year. This was his last year with one classroom teacher. Time marches on!
That evening Mason & Eric had their annual high school Awards Banquet.
The two of them cleaned house with athletic awards, earning Most Valuable Player in all three of our high school sports. Mason team MVP in football and basketball, and Eric team MVP for baseball for the second year in a row. They were both awarded All-Conference in football. Mason made All-Conference basketball. Baseball conference awards to be announced, as the season was just ending. Mason ended the season with the highest batting average, and Eric team MVP.
It's pretty unique for any of these awards to be earned by sophomores, let alone so many of them. (They earned many of them as freshman as well.)
We lost McGee in the few hours between those last events, one of the saddest ordeals of my life. It was with great difficulty that I went straight from the vet to the banquet. I found it mostly impossible to put a pause button on grief. But it was a big night for our boys, and we're very proud of their
The next day was the last day of school and Lilly's 10th birthday. Just like that, double digits.
Given the week's circumstances, I had been taking things one day at a time, not knowing what each day would bring. I hadn't make plans for Lilly's birthday. We were a sad bunch, so to try to boost morale, we made fast arrangements for two of her friends to come home on the bus after school to celebrate. They had a fun evening.
I promised a sleepover / slumber party another time, because I had to have Mason to the hospital very early for surgery the next morning. (What a way to start the first day of summer vacation!)
None of our kids had been put under before, so I was a bit anxious, but his surgery went just fine.
He now has a pin in the bone of his finger, so all the broken fragments (and tendons attached to them) can heal. Two weeks down, four to go before the pin comes out. Mason is counting down the days since he wants to be participating in summer football passing games.
I'm counting down the days because teenage boys are at higher risk of bending the pin (and potentially breaking it off.) So far so good!
Sometime after returning home from the hospital that afternoon, company left & I finally crashed. I don't think I've ever felt exhaustion as I did that week. So much grief & worry & eventfulness all mixed together. So much going & being around people, when I'm a person who needs alone time and quiet in times of difficulty.
I spent a couple of days focused on restoration. I read. I mowed. Kids played. We welcomed the downtime & settled into summer vacation..
And a million smaller simpler things have been filling our days. :)
I can't wait to share them.